Wednesday, August 24, 2011

Cone of Uncertainty...


You might be asking, "where ya been homey?"...well, let me tell you folks...I am living and operating in a "cone of uncertainty"...this is a new term for me. I discovered it the other morning while watching the projections of hurricane Irene. The term "cone of uncertainty" is used for different things, one being to determine the path of a big ass hurricane. Here is my Wikipedia definition that better describes other applications for this term: The term Cone of Uncertainty is used in software development where the technical and business environments change very rapidly. However, the concept, under different names, is a well established basic principle of Cost Engineering.
Now, instead of a business model or hurricane projection, I think this term can be applied to my own personal life...but its not just about me(this time), I believe it has much broader implications. As I was watching the tropical update on the weather channel, and this term was tossed out there, it hit me like a ton of bricks and I have been thinking about it since then. The "cone of uncertainty" is what our current society seems to be living under these days. Uncertain of the economy...uncertain of our leadership...uncertain of the direction our nation seems to be headed...uncertain of the housing market...uncertain about everything. I bring these broad topics up because they are the life blood of our doom preaching media and each morning while I have my coffee I am bombarded with statistics from random polls about our struggling economy, doubts about recovery, and the consistent unemployment rates. After a while this continued coverage of our nation's current failings has started to sink into my brain deeper and deeper. Many of you might say, "don't watch the news", but that's not going to happen and sticking my head in the sand is not really me. Like some of you maybe, I feel as if I'm flailing about in a sea of uncertainty...little did I know that we are all in this vast and dark "cone of uncertainty".

Prolonged periods of uncertainty can be a really tough thing for your mental well being and can also stem other issues related to that sinking feeling. "Fear and loathing" was my going to be my title for this post before I watched the weather channel that morning. I'm not talking about the self induced gonzo paranoia from Hunter S. Thompson but a true deep seated fear for the welfare of yourself and your loved ones and a very unhealthy sense of failure and self loathing. I think these feelings are in great abundance within the cone of uncertainty and act like jagged rocks where you can easily be dashed upon. But in this bleak "cone of uncertainty" how do you steer clear of those rocks and how do you keep the wind in your sails?

Lets come back to that one while I back track a bit...
Admittedly, I am a little obsessed about our current economic floundering. I am profoundly disturbed by the lack of direction and vision our leadership, both at the federal government level as well as my own personal work based administration level, seems to to display. I understand that there is "no money" but what are we going to do about that issue and what might be a reasonable alternative to this problem that will help sustain people and programs that have been working. It seems that the only answer that I have been hearing here in the commonwealth of Pennsylvania is...to cut programs. "Programs" namely being education.

We are now feeling the squeeze across the state. I am the gallery director and adjunct "go to guy" for a small state university here in PA...and I am fortunate to still have a job...even at part time. The state budget for higher education was slashed by what amounted for us to be, 18.9%. That's a whole lot. The art department was asked to find 550,000 dollars in savings...that means people lost their jobs and programs were put on the chopping block. What was once a thriving studio based department is now taking on water and it looks like the lifeboats are going to be lowered. Where are the defenders of our programs?! Is everyone simply "thankful" to still have a job and are now laying low? The big difference in my sinking ship metaphor is that the captain will not be going down...crew and passengers will however.

Not only is this happening in higher ed. but primary and secondary schools statewide too. I understand that we are not the only state where education is the first thing to be pillaged as I hail from Florida and know how bungled their education system is from first hand experience. I taught middle and high school for close to nine years there and was required to fight for my art program on a regular basis. Currently here in PA, I am seeing the same thing happen that happened in Florida ten years ago. The tactics are eerily similar...huge cuts to education, head start programs, and the arts. More emphasis on testing, standardization, and an implementation of a business model placed on the students. Because of course, there will be "no child left behind"...all children learn the same...right? I feel like I am back in the sunshine state under the bucket head'ed government of Jeb Bush...brother of W.

I have seen counties near by that have just recently removed art from their curriculums...that's right, elementary schools with no art programs...county wide. I know people who have been working in good schools that have undergone major restructuring in how and to whom they will be teaching art. And most recently, my wife became one of these statistics that I have been watching on CNN. My wife's job was eliminated from her cyber charter school after 8 years due to educational cutbacks...and she is not even in the arts. The cyber charters are public schools and are also funded like any other brick and mortar school. So now I am feeling the squeeze on my wallet personally. So yes, the arts have always been the first on the chopping block but now it looks as though all of education has its neck stretched out tightly. What is it with cutting funding for education...in this time of recession and turmoil, couldn't we use some smarter, creative, more inventive people? Why is it that our government is continually devaluing education?

Speaking of our crop of inventive people that would like to take up the reigns...conservative republicans like Rick Perry from Texas need a serious wake up call. Prayer is all good and well but I do not think Jesus is going to balance our nation's deficit or create jobs for people. Maybe the big guy might reduce our defense spending and start taxing some of these high profit corporations though...in that case, he's got my vote. Our governor here in PA, Tom Corbett, is one of these republicans...proposing educational cuts at every level...keep the people stupid and keep the gas and oil companies sheltered from taxes. Heck, with no education people won't know better and then maybe he can have a big statewide prayer rally to celebrate new fracking technologies. On the far right, its a wacky bunch and I do not want to get too far in to that cuckoo's nest. Unfortunately, our democratic party seems to also be sailing along in this cone of uncertainty too. This is not what I was thinking about when Obama was talking about "change". He inherited a serious quagmire that has done nothing but continue to suck everything and everybody down.

So what's a guy to do. How do you go on making art and teaching folks? Its a tough boat to sail on such rough waters but there are ways to navigate the cone of uncertainty. First let me explain that my own personal cone has become a little more challenging. Like I said, my wife was let go from her job which directly effects us, but I have also moved...sort of. My family which includes my wife, daughter, dog and cat have very recently shifted our sleeping and eating places to a location that is almost 2 hours away. We are pre-inheriting my wife's childhood home as her elderly father has now moved into a much lower maintenance condo. This is good...its just that I still work for the university until next June as well as own a home in the borough here and share a studio space still with my good friend Nancy Smeltzer at Little Mahoning Creek Pottery. So as we begin renovating our new home(in desperate need of an update) and start my daughter in a new school and commute to work and spend the night in my sleeping bag in what is now the shell of our old home, I must hold tight to the rudder and be very aware of those underlying jagged rocks of fear and self doubt. Which brings me back to the beginning...here are a few tips.

1. I manage by having a small group of friends that help keep me afloat. Without friends like Nancy, who I have fired and worked with for the last few years, I would surely have sunk. Her continued generousity and sincerity over the years has not only provided me with a place to work but also a better understanding of a love of making utilitarian work and an inspiration to keep making. Recently, another friend, Jim McDowell, generously gave me an older kiln for bisque firing my work. This is what I'm talking about...replacing the swarms of harpies with a good community that keeps you pumping along. Look for others who may be in a similar boat and think about how you can help each other...lash your vessels together and think collaboration. Instead of assigning blame and pointing fingers more can be gained by being proactive...let's hope Washington catches on.

2. Focus on family...when you are in distress, your crew might be too. Get out and do stuff together.

3. Health without wealth is still good. Exercise is my favorite de-stresser. I became more active with a regular gym schedule during the winter months and have been able to keep going at it even during my move and 2 hour commute to work. I feel great both physically and mentally after working out.

4. KEEP MAKING WORK...I'm working on this one as I type. While I am back in the greater metropolitan of Indiana, I am making time to go up to Nancy's after work at the university. There I am continuing to throw and fire the wood kiln. In fact we are firing the kiln today. Nancy started this morning and when I leave here (because I'm actually "at work") I'm heading up to take my shift. I understand that making work is very imporatnt to my mental well being...as an artist and educator it is also important to my carreer. No matter what, I will find a way to make work.

As our country sails into the murky waters, I have to remind myself and others out there in my same situation, that there are ways to navigate the cone of uncertainty, its not an endless void. Doing it just requires a new skill set sometimes and a great deal of perseverance. Right now I'm just trying to not end up with that cone of uncertainty rolled up tightly on top of my head while I sit alone on a stool in the corner.

I promise more pots next time.

6 comments:

carter gillies said...

Thanks for posting this Kyle.

It breaks my heart that we are in this position today, and I'm grateful that folks like yourself are standing up and challenging us to do something about the situation. I have tried to make a similar case on my blog these last few months, but I get the sense that many of our fellow potters either can't see the warning signs or are content to sit back and let the chips fall where they may.

Preserving the status quo is simply not good enough. We deserve to live in a better world and our children are counting on us not to screw things up too badly for them.

Thanks for taking a stand. With your courage in calling our attention to the situation perhaps we can decide to make a difference. It just blows me away that so many folks are happy to take one injustice, inequity, and discrimination after another forced down our throats. We deserve better.

Thanks Kyle. I wish you the best of luck in your own journey.

D Kuhn said...

I whole heartedly agree. We must stand up and call out those who are using these hard times to make a name in politics. Though I do feel that the self destruct phase of the GOP might be triggered by the idiocy of the group. Let us do everything we can to "Speak Truth to Power". Well Done Sir. D. Kuhn

christyculp said...

Hey Kyle,
Ouch.I hear you and I am standing behind you shaking my fist at.....I don't even know. Sigh. Being at the public secondary level, we took a hit and rumor is it will hit even harder next year. So I march into my classroom everyday saying to myself "Damnit, this is MY job and it's important!" My students are furious, I hear from parents who are furious. What follows is your big "cone of uncertainty" that sounds like a freight train rolling in. I turn on the classroom jams, the kids start making art and all is good for 42 minutes.Repeat that 8 more times, and I get in my car and listen to the news. How can we be doing such laudable things in the classroom, and have them simply dismissed? When history and research has shown what we do is so important, how and why are we the first ones shoved off the bus? I just don't know. I do know, that I will walk back into my class tomorrow work with the next group of problem solvers who unfortunately will inherit this debaucle, but hopefully will be able to solve it.

k.houser said...

Thanks for your comments Carter,Dan,Christy...Ive never felt so dumbfounded...honestly, if I let myself really think about it all Im stopped and stuck in my tracks...we can't do that...the bigger picture is so overwhelmingly bleak right now...like all three of you have said, you have to keep doing what you do...do it more and do it with pride...we all reach out in our own ways and find others to stand with that make us stronger...Carter and I through our blogs as well as through what we make...as artists and teachers, we all need to possibly tweak our skill sets some but continue to focus on the possibilities that we know are there...
simply put, Neil Young says it best...
Don't let it bring you down, its only castles burning, find someone who's turning, and you will come around.

barbaradonovan said...

i wasn't able to decide whether to be depressed by it all or inspired by your perseverance. i think i'll try to go with inspired.

FetishGhost said...

On the up side... the public are looking for distractions and want to be entertained. I believe we can make the best of it by taking it over the top and engaging everyone with more challenging work and by becoming public performers, sharing what we do in less traditional venues like parks and street corners.
A new renaissance in the Arts is the opportunity we have at hand... it's up to us to dream it and make it real.
Love your 5 tips Kyle. You've been a personal inspiration for nearly 4 years now, your work is seriously fun!